Iam getting messed up again. For god's sake this guy is killing me. I thought I was over him. I was seriously convinced that we can't be together. Our boxes don't tick like sreenanda said. We are not meant for each other. He is just an ordinary guy who came into my life to become my good friend . I was truly over him. But then ..then things happen..like today...why does he notice about little things like he is my boyfriend? What did he mean when he said he wants to vishudhamayi clear things up? On top of it why the hell does he think it's okay to spoil me with chocolates? 

I was sitting in the library trying my best to concentrate on his class on number system convertion. He looked at me in between to see if iam on the same track as him. But me?? I have no shame to admit that I couldn't concentrate on what he was teaching for I was searching his eyes .I was trying to decode what is behind those eyes.I was reading my destiny inside without even knowing it. At one point I think it striked him too about what I was searching for. It's one of my favourite things about human anatomy. Something so effortless and universal.  The way our eyes change when our heart is in charge of a situation. Just like how our pupils dilate when it's dark and we are trying to take more light in . Except in this situation I felt like I was his light . His eyes involuntarily trying to take me in.