I feel weird . I don't know if my heart is playing games with me or if I actually feel like vomitting. Iam unable to differentiate the difference between these two. I can't concentrate. I can't think straight . I can't sit and do a task . I can't stop thinking. I can't stop anything. What the hell just happened today??What the hell did that guy mean when he said he wanted to say something but he is afraid if it will ruin something?? What in the world happened to me at that time. I thought my heart would come out of my body when he looked at me . My poor hearteu. It couldnt handle all that. Why couldn't i handle that situation?? What is happening to me ?? I can't fathom if I am looking forward or if Iam afraid  to hear the unsaid thoughts of his . Oooorrrr the possibility that it could be because Iam afraid to accept my own feelings .You little demon . You stirred up my tranquil heart .Or is it my menstrual cycle fucking me up?? God knows.

I tell myself that iam not into you. Iam not in love it's just a game we do . But then you're in my head like.. (yes , it's a stolen idea from a song)